Shoot me now

I have been really good this week, eating within my points, plenty of exercise and figure wise its paid off. My jeans are looser and my husband can see it off me.

Why on earth did Weightwatchers just tell me that I gained 1lb then?????!!!!!

I feel completely deflated and demotivated. I wanted to grab the WW scales and hurl them across the room. No…. but really… I did… I kinda wanted to drop kick the leader too…

I felt good this morning, liked the shape I saw in the mirror, but according to WW I’m still 11lbs overweight and now I feel like a fat cow.

Gutted

You may have noticed that I didn’t go to Weightwatchers last week….. well to be completely honest I was very fed up with the whole thing. I guess I was on a bit of a weight loss downer.

I spoke to my WW buddy Kelly and basically explained how I was feeling (I’d have been lost without you this week bird)…. very much like I was on a diet & deprived.

This wasn’t WW fault, it was purely mine. I wasn’t following the programme properly, I was being lax about it. So I’ve had a week off, wallowed a bit, felt sorry for my fat ass and I’m over it now.

I took myself to todays meeting with the attitude of, I can fix this and pull it back…

No need. I lost 1lb

Now you could literally have knocked me down with a feather, I was utterly convinced (partly because I’d weighed myself in the house this morning) I had gained at least 1.5- 2lbs.

Uh-uh.

I’ve learnt 2 major things from this episode.

• The scales in the house aren’t accurate and they need to be binned if I’m to stop torturing myself and dreading weigh ins.

• My weight problem is 60% in my mind, 40% in my body. I have a bad body image and I need to work on that. I’m going to start by booking myself into the college beauty salon for some pampering treatments

I also purchased a Pedometer today to try and up my exercise again. Pretty nifty little device that bascially calculates your steps and tells you what wine activity points you earn, if any.

It can seem a bit arduous clocking up activity points as before you earn any you need to reach do what is classed as a “normal” amount of healthy exercise, namely 10,000 steps per day. Thats the hard point, once you break that barrier though, the points clock up quite quickly! Already today just walking a short distance from WW and collecting youngest from nursery I’ve done over 3,000 steps.

Hope everyone else has done ok this week too, special mention to the gorgeous @lizzclare who lost 5.75lbs this week. Her secret? No meals after 5pm!! Well done Elizabeth xxxx

I nearly didn’t go today……

I missed the 9am meeting and had no intention of going to the 10.30am one either….. I’ve had a bad week food wise. I’ve totally lost control of the snacking and I didn’t want to see my leaders face when she told me I’d gained.

You’d be forgiven for thinking Easter has been and gone.

Not in my house. While my husband was out late last night I “found” a forgotten Creme Egg Easter Egg belonging to one of the kids. I ate it in front of Eastenders, every last morsel. I think it took me about 5 mins tops. I’ve been a nightmare this week with chocolate.

I think we all have our bad food whether it be cheese, chinese etc, mine is and always has been the chocolate. I can’t just have a little, and so I have none (other than WW substitutes), but last week I bought a Curly Wurly, and I kidded myself it was a one off. I then had one four days in a row, topped off with the creme egg. Ugh. Devil chocolate.

So after dropping the kids to school I settled down to watch Claire Richards “My Big Fat Wedding” on iPlayer.

After that, I practically ran to the later meeting to get weighed. If you haven’t had the chance to watch it you really should. From a weight loss perspective it is truly inspirational.

Anyway, in summary, I gained 1lb. It could have been much much worse. So I’m really glad I went to the meeting, without the pep talks from my WW friends, I think a bad week would have turned into a bad fortnight or perhaps even a complete wagon dismount. I was feeling that bad. Don’t underestimate the value of your Weightwatchers meetings!!

I came home renewed, did 10 mins on the trampette, then cleared the house of a few other eggs that were hanging about in cupboards. The kids don’t want them, and I don’t need them.

I went out to Tesco and did a shop for some ingredients, I’m going to get back into cooking from the WW Recipe books, they really are fab. It’s just so easy to get out of the habit, so I’m taking control back.

I got the “Weekdays” one today. £7.99 at meetings.

It has 60 recipes but the beauty being that none of them take longer than 30 mins to prepare and cook. Its a good design too, the book sits up and the pages are laminated so it can be wiped down, great for a messy cook like me

Hope everyone else had a better week than me weight wise

xoxox

Last night I went to the Girls Aloud gig with my brother’s girlfriend and it was a brilliant night.

We went to a bar first and I was very naughty and had a few pints of Tennents and some red wine. So I was very pleased today at Weightwatchers when I lost another pound! Happy days

I wore my new Max C dress and my all time favourite Rudey 3-strap heels which were a much loved present from my husband. I felt very glam, girlie & suprisingly svelte once I was ready.

*Pictures can be enlarged by clicking on them

Makeup was pretty lazy tbh, a staple go to for me. Basically MAC Woodwinked, Mulch, Lovestone and a smidgen of Urban Decay Oil Slick for added depth. I was also sporting my “Nicola” from Girls Aloud Eylure Falsies. Lips are MAC Angel topped with Soft & Slow.

While I like the shape of the lashes, I’m not overly impressed with the actual band on the eyelid. It is very spacey and required quite a layer of gel liner to conceal it. On a plus though they peeled away easily after wear and I will be able to re-use them at least one more time. I didn’t use the glue they came with, I prefer Duo Adhesive, it works best for me.

All in all the concert itself was fab. They all looked a little stiff and nervous for the first two songs but after that they were in full swing and rocked the place. Nadine’s legs are like tooth picks in reality and Sarah Hardings body is amazing (even if she was sporting very dodgy hair extensions), and Nicola is even paler than I could ever have imagined but still my favourite!

Below are a few snaps taken with my piss poor camera. Sorry for the quality but you get the idea

If you’re lucky enough to catch the girls on their tour, enjoy xoxox

Unlucky for some…..

Not for me it seems, as I lost 0.5lbs today. Weight Loss so far 16lbs.
Not a huge amount I realise but pretty damn impressive considering the absolute diet hell that was the Easter Holidays.

It was a living chocolatey nightmare, yummy eggs everywhere, and I’m not sure whether my paranoia just reached new heady heights, or if its simply a coincidence that all the eggs the children received were my favourites. Mini Eggs, Creme Eggs, Maltesers, Buttons *drool*.

Then there was the ice-cream, copious amounts of the stuff, daily. I didn’t want to be a spoilsport, so of course to make others feel better I forced several 99′s down my neck……. (thats my excuse and I’m sticking to it).
My eldest also couldn’t finish half his Candy Floss and there wasn’t a bin in sight. So with litter dropping carrying a hefty penalty and Candy Floss not being something you can fold into your pocket for later it was down to me to dispose of it……. nom

The weight loss disaster hit a peak at my mother’s house, and the feast that was Easter Sunday Dinner. At some point (many years ago) it appears my mother must have taken a blow to the head, its the only logical reason I can think to explain why she cooks army sized portions for a family of 4.
Out the plate came, if it was patterned it was impossible to tell, potatoes, gravy, stuffing, veg, chicken simply covered every available mm.

Totally impossible to actually point a meal like that, but you can guess it ain’t pretty. It’s quite laughable then that for afters she had bought in specially a little Weightwatchers dessert for me. Bless her. She didn’t realise that the dinner had completely negated the need for a “diet” dessert, as I had already consumed my daily quota of points for the entire week in the previous 20 minutes. Sigh.

At this point I was feeling more than a little ill, and wanted to slope off to the privacy of my home where I could down half a bottle of Gaviscon or all else failing stick a pin in myself, but no, the tea came out, and in Northern Ireland tea is never served alone. Its tea and a “wee” bun, or tea and a “wee biscuit”. Nightmare.

So here I am 3 days later, still feeling full and never wanting to see a potato again, ever. I also have a raft of spots thanks to the small amount of chocolate I did comsume.
Thank god, literally, that Easter only comes once a year. Don’t get me wrong, the time with family and the break from routine is brilliant but the sheer over-indulgence and general pigging out I can happily forgo!
Today is a fresh start!

How’s everyone else getting on?

xoxox

Back on track

This week I have 1lb off, taking my weight to 11 stone 6.5lbs & a total weight loss so far of 15.5lbs

I’m really pleased, the kids are off on their school holidays and I normally find that plays havoc with meal planning etc, but its been pretty ok, the larder is well stocked and I’m avoiding temptation.

The talk this week at Weightwatchers revolved arounding the impending diet doom day(s) that is Easter. She very helpfuly brought in a number of eggs and pointed them for us. Did you know that a small Nestle Kit Kat one contains 32 points?? lol me neither!

I’ll be sticking to a Cabdury’s Creme Egg and making do, at 3.5 points thats pretty much guilt free!

How’s everyone else doing this week?

xoxox

Just a quick post as nothing groundbreaking to report.

I stayed exactly the same this week, I’m not complaining at all though as I have the PMT from hell and basically feel like Moby Dick.

I’m also been very snacky and have been indulging in probably 3 times the RDA of Weightwatchers chocolate rolls & cheese puff (wotsit rip off) crisps, so I’m encouraged that I haven’t gained anything. I think the exercise bike is working its magic

Hope everyone else is having a good week xoxox

I’ve got my first STONE off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This was achieved by losing another 2lbs this week taking me to a weight of 11 Stone 7.5lbs
Which is actually half a pound happily under my Stone threshold (Sorry prepare for lots of smilies & exclamation marks in this post!!)

Its taken me 10 weeks to get there but I’m confident that because I’ve lost it at a sensible rate I’ll find it easier to keep it off

Apart form the biggest grin and the best feeling in the world I also got a little symbolic stone from my leader Jackie awwwwww

I’ve still got a long way to go to reach goal weight but I’m setting myself little achievable milestones instead of getting too hung up on the bigger picture and that seems to be working. To date I’ve just been relying on healthy food and smaller portions to provide the weight loss, this week I’ll be introducing some light exercise. It would be fair to say you will never find me running in the gym, it just bores me rigid. However I have a trampette, a dog to walk and children to collect from school

I took pictures in my underwear at the beginning of my weight loss journey and at regular intervals, I highly recommend doing this. I cannot believe the difference in my Week 0 pictures and my Week 9. Without the photographic evidence I think I’d still be in denial that my shape is changing at all. But it is!! And I’m loving it!

I took front, back and side views and I’ll continue to do this. I don’t feel its appropriate to post the actual pics (thats a view for my hubby only, although I may re-consider if I hit goal) but the difference losing this stone has had on my whole well being both physically and mentally has been incredible. I want everyone to feel like this xoxox

Below is a candid picture taken at Christmas by my hubby, I am a size 16, I am in denial, and yes thats wine in the box
This was the picture that made me realise I had to get a grip on my weight, for my health and my own self esteem. (Although it has to be noted throughout all this time my husband has never once commented on my weight and was forever telling me how beautiful I was, I <3 you baby)

This is me today, sorry for the poor lighting, but I’m on my todd and self timing on a camera is just too much like hard work with me!

I am beginning to see definition at my waist, 10 weeks ago I was much more “barrel” shaped!
I’m feeling sexier, more confident and more interested in my whole body, not just from the neck up!
I find myself buying lots of body lotions & moisturisers with hints of tan. I’ve also been buying clothing which I had lost all interest in!!!
In the pic above I am actually wearing a size 12 top and size 14 leggings!!

What a difference a stone makes!

xoxoxox

I wasn’t for going to Weightwatchers this week, and due to feeling slightly under the weather this morning (self-inflicted) I really couldn’t get dressed never mind in a car to the 9.15 meeting.
Few hours later and feeling more chipper I thought I’d catch the later meet and get weighed. I couldn’t stay for the meeting as my eldest is off school sick today, and I’m not sure about everyone elses WW leaders, but mine isn’t child friendly at all. She tuts at babies gurgling ffs.

So I weighed in at……. 11 Stone 9.5 llbs!!!!!!!!! Another 2.5lbs off!!!
I’m grinning from ear to ear, I didn’t make my stone off this week but its well within reach now with only 1.5lbs to go

My whole shape is visibly changing, its just fab. I had to buy a belt for jeans that I couldn’t even manage to button at Christmas. I also bought my first Size 12 dress in two years a few days ago. I did as I normally do, took the Size 14 into the changing room and it was noticeably too big, the 12 is perfect!
Normally I tell them to ditch the hanger as I like all my clothes on matching hangers but I kept this one, purely because it says Size 12!!! on it, and everytime I look at it it makes me

How is everyone else doing??
xoxox

Skipping to week 8 as last week I took a holiday from Weightwatchers due to my birthday excesses.

Amazingly I have only gained 1lb, I am delighted, I’m sitting at 11 stone 12lb to date, still an overall loss of 10lbs. I really haven’t been tracking my points at all the past fortnight, but I think its testament to the fact that I’m getting to know what I can and can’t eat, I also think my metabolism is recovering the more weight I lose, so although I wasn’t terribly good a few days last week, when I exercise its actually getting burnt off. Hooray!!

Back to being good this week and aiming to hit that stone off mark next Wednesday. Can I do it?

xoxox

We are back on track, I lost 2lbs this week, taking my overall weightloss to 11lbs and I now weigh 11 stone 11lbs

I actually wasn’t for going this week, I’ve “felt” fat this week and was was convinced I had put on and just couldn’t face it. Luckily an AIM conversation with my good friend Kelly gave me a bit of perspective and I re-thought the whole skipping a week thing.
I think that really highlights how important it is to have support on your weight loss journey, without it I’m 100% positive I wouldn’t have weighed in this week. It also proves that in the weight loss battle the mind is either your best pal or your worst enemy.

Psychologically it was a bad week, stress clouded my judgement and tricked me into thinking I was going to disappoint. An in actual fact I’d been very good and there was no real solid reason for me to think I should have gained, but I “felt” big and therefore…

So happily I am 2lbs lighter and sticking 2 fingers up to the little devil on my shoulder.

What about everyone else? How did you get on?

xox

Nothing strange or startling this week, I put on 1lb but tbh I’m happy enough with that, I hadn’t been counting my points over the weekend and I also had numerous “wee buns” due to half term. So 1lb isn’t too depressing

Back on track this week though, I’m actually going to be all nerdy and create a set meal plan for the week and see how we all get on with that. I have a big pot of Zero points veggie soup cooking away on the stove as we speak.
It’ll have a few points in it later by the time I add the tatties (veggie soup is just WRONG for me minus potatoes) but it’ll still be a tasty low point snack.

How is everyone else getting on? Anyone starting into an exercise plan yet? My mind is starting to wander that direction but as yet I remain unconvinced. I’m such a lazy mare xox

Have a smile as big as Zippy’s, slightly concerned if it gets any wider my head will split in two (ok maybe not, but I’m very very happy!)

I lost 5lbs this week

Which means I have lost a total of 10lbs so far, passed the half stone mark and obtained my silver 7 sticker (manically exciting if your a fat fighter like me!). I had to literally stop myself from sticking it on my forehead, apparently thats a little too in your face….

w00t!

I’m even more delighted because of my disappointing zilch loss last week. I’ve put that down to the devil Domino’s pizza and water retention at the tail end of my time of the month.

Would love to hear how you’re all getting on!!

xox

Well to be frank, there is none, no weightloss to speak of, nada, zilch!

I have stayed the same.

How do I feel about that?
Pretty cross with myself to be honest, I kidded myself that a Saturday night of excess which included my own Domino’s pizza, 2 bottles of red wine and some bubbly wouldn’t affect the outcome this week.
It clearly has, as I’ve been angelic since and before that incident.

Do I feel like I want to go and raid the bsicuit tin in self pity?
No, not at all, I actually feel more determined to get the 2lbs I wanted off this week, off next week. The level of disappointment I felt at the scales told me what I don’t think I was 100% sure of until then. I’m not just talking the talk, I actually truly am ready and want to lose the weight, I want it more than anything.

I feel healthier, happier, more confident thinner, so thats where I’m headed and this week is just a blip.

How did everyone else get on this week?

xox

I am grinning like a cheshire cat, I weighed in at Weightwatchers this morning and I have another 3lbs off!!!! Taking my total weight loss so far to 5lbs
I’m especially pleased because I did manage to enjoy a few beers and some bubbly at the weekend!!

Today I also bought a points calculator. This does more than calculate points in food (I have spent ages thinking it only did that), it also acts like your paper tracker and records your 7 day week, you can deduct your points throughout the day. I’m loving this already, I really don’t have the time or the inclination to keep writing down what I have had to eat, this is a quick and easy way of recording my points.
Another purchase was the Shop book and this has already proved invaluable. I did the weekly shop also this morning and would never have thought of things like Quorn and soft noodles as being low in points but they are. Its a pretty bulky book with most brands and foods pointed out, so I’m very pleased with that too.

Hope everyone else has had a good week xox

Well folk, I lost 2lbs

I’m absolutely over the moon, I was convinced I’d lost nothing as I actually “felt” heavy this week, that time of the month we all loathe is loaming and I have been feeling bloated and disgusting, but just goes to show the healthy eating is working

2lbs doesn’t sound that much to the ear, however if you consider that the 4 chicken fillets in the bowl below don’t even weigh 1.5lbs then it really hits you that its actually a lot! Obviously some of what we lose in weight will be excess fluid but the majority is purely fat… yeuck!

I personally think it really helps to see visual evidence of the amount lost, and what better medium to use than meat, after all thats what I’m losing… the meat off my bones!! lol

Long may it continue, and thanks to everyone who is supporting me along the way xoxoxo

P.S
Ok, my husband has just pointed out that it might be easier (and less revolting) to count the loss in butter or lard LOL, he may have a point, but for this week its chicken fillet!!